SURPRISE!!

 Since my last post, I have had two wonderful little nephews come into the world, Zachary Matthew and Joshua Michael.  They are just adorable as can be!!!  They were born April 1st, 2011.

                Zachary in the blue, Joshua in yellow.


                BUT

April 27th, 2011 -

This post is the main reason I made this blog.  For 3.5 years now I have been dreaming of this day,... WE'RE PREGNANT!!!!  And it happened naturally as I had always dreamed it would, and therefore it was a surprise and a shock to both of us, but a GREAT one.  We've been waiting for this for so so so long!

Now for those of you who are reading this and have also struggled through infertility,... there is hope.  They say once you've given up and stop trying, that's when it'll happen.  Guess what,... they were right.  I am just beyond excited, and I couldn't have asked for a better birthday present,... and not only that, if I have figured my due date right this baby will be the best Christmas present ever!  I do however understand the sadness and frustration that comes along with seeing everyone's joyful status updates CONSTANTLY on facebook, or pictures of bellies and newborns.  I will do my best to keep those to a minimum, and hopefully use this blog for that.  However I am sure that I am will throw a few pictures or gushy status updates,... but I don't do it to rub it in anyone's face, I promise.  I just want to celebrate my own joy, because finally after all this time, it's finally my turn.  I'm sure you understand and will feel the same way when it comes to be your turn, and someday it will.

Since some of you like hearing the stories:

After 3.5 years of fertility drugs, doctors appointments and a surgery we thought our only hope was IVF which we had planned to do this summer when we could change our coverage on our insurance.  So since October, which was our last try at anything before giving up and moving onto IVF, I basically gave up and decided there's nothing I can do and I just have to wait.  Then, bam that's when it happened.  You know how they also say to take a vacation? Well we were out of town,... so there ya go,... take a vacation and stop trying so hard.  Two birds with one stone.  Of course since we've been trying so long I always thought I was pregnant because 1) I wanted it so badly and 2) because my cycles were never the same.  One month 28 days, another 32, another 29, another 35.  This time was a little different, I always start spotting before, which didn't happen so I was confused because I was having all the other premenstrual symptoms,... cramps, sore breasts, bloating.  I told myself it was going to start any day,... Then yesterday (the day after Easter) I decided to just make sure and picked up a test on my way home from work.  I took it as soon as I got home, and completely expecting to see another big fat NO, instantly I saw both lines show up.  I started bawling, I just couldn't believe it, I almost still don't,....  Andrew was still sleeping and I took it and woke him.  He saw I was crying first then saw I was holding something, and said "Is that two lines!?" then grew a huge smile and we started hugging and kissing. It was the best moment in the world, but I couldn't shake the thought that it might be a false positive.  Andrew had to go into work early so we decided I wouldn't take the next one till the morning, so if it were negative he could comfort me.  of course I slept like crap because it's ALL I could think about,...I took it as soon as he got home, and again instantly both pink lines showed up.  I started crying again, walked out of the bathroom and said "We're going to have a baby!!"  THAT was the best moment, nothing will ever be able to top it, not until this baby comes into the world. 

This child is a miracle and blessing from God!!   For those who want to know, we will NOT be finding out the sex, we want it to be a surprise.  And honestly I don't care if it's a boy or a girl, I'm just ELATED that this has even happened.


UPDATE:
May 15th, 2011 - 

Had my first Dr.'s appointment on May 5th, my due date is actually December 25th (Christmas Day) which is both amazing and well sad for the child because what an awful time to have a birthday,... but non-the-less we are so very excited! Today is my 8 week mark.  I didn't want too many people to know to soon, just in case something happened, but we are having a very hard time keeping this to ourselves... as I'm sure our parents are as well!!  For Andrew's parents this will be their first grandchild, and for my parents this will be number 10 (hopefully not 11 as well because everyone's been telling me I'm going to have twins too).  I have my 10 week appt. in a couple of weeks, hopefully they will do an ultrasound, I am so anxious to see my baby for the first time.  If they do, pictures and an update will be posted.

Now that it has been announced, I ask that because of the feelings of others who have gone through what I have gone through, that if you have any questions or want to know more or anything, please post here or send me a private message on facebook.  A comment on facebook such as congrats is completely fine, but to spare those people's feelings I don't want to have whole convo's on there that may make them sad.  I've been there and know how it feels.

              Taken this morning - 8 weeks.

Thanks, and many updates to come!
Alisha, Andrew and baby Bosler  =)